The Journey - Part 1

 

Wow.. Its been really long.. and I feel like I'm totally new to this..

Back to blogging after the "silent phase" (the last one and a half year - no posts).. and lot of things happened and still happening.. i just don't know where to begin.. so i thought let me begin to start writing in the first place and then decide the order.. 

"In the grey sky of dawn stars still glowed, as happy memories light up in that is nearing its close. Brother what shall I do with the lands? You are my land from where I could harvest everything in life. I need nothing save you. Accept this, please. If you deny, I shall never show my face to you again. That night our mother went to a shop and she didn’t come back. Ever. Lying on the floor of the prison was – feathers. Jeweled feathers from his back, the longer, more boldly patterned feathers from his sides, down from his belly. They had fallen out in the night. I must prevent thee, cimber. These lowly couching and these lowly courtesies. That every like is not the same. How foolish your day after day seems to be now. An elderly sailor said you would better stamp the shoes of your own the tide of shore. Finally Bee said “I’m sorry I didn’t understand any thing mentioned above”. Am I missing something here?"

Yes.. and this is the narrative of how things were over that "silent phase"..  Its been like a crazy dream.. or I could say it was a perfect "masala" movie, having each one of those emotions.. 

Confusion.. Chaos.. Clarity.. Concepts.. Concentration..Crime.. Climax n what not?

Let me take u a few months back... blink blink.. n here goes the flashhbackkkk.....

It was the month of december.. getting all my final classes done.. i was preparing myself for what u call (or rather what i would like to call now as the "Testing Time") the Exam leave.. i was one month from there.. trying hard to revise a few things..and trying even harder to strike at those few strategic concepts which were taught in class but i had missed them cause of Narcolepsy(u must hav known wat it is .. the sleeping disorder actor vishal had in Naan sivappu manithan).. to say it simply.. those few classes where i had dozed off.. me and SFM.. !!  It was a hard subject for me.. but God made it even harder for few others who helped me face it..lol.. my friends.. who made SFM - Safe For Me.. :-) if not for them.. SFM is my Scary Forgetful Memory..

With loads of All the best's and beliefs..January.. i entered into 'The TT".. 

First 10 days were the perfect ten.. I plan .. I did.. n I aced through it.. wow.. i had completed more than i had planned.. awesome.. with this pace.. im gonna reach that.. the record..i had set.. perfect.. 

Until the harvesting began for the world n stopping for me..!! 

The Pongal.. fine..just one day guests.. i could reschedule..but ppl u never told u were staying long :-I (5 days??)  finally bidding adieu to them.. only to regret that an aunt had passed away suddenly.. another 10 days.. 

Will u believe that chain snatchers do it even when u are standing just right outside your home n talking to the neighbour at 5.30 p.m.. for the pinch of crime to add to my already shaken dream run.. my mothers chain was snatched n she was hurt..  

Pace.. Perfect? where am I.. my plans punchered.. holes in my plan where huge than the loopholes in direct tax laws..!! but something was intact.. the thought that "I Didn't Want To Undergo These Days Again.." that was my motivation to go on.. the unique Step forward monologue (USFM).. Target reset..

To add some colour to the drooping days.. my brothers wedding was coming up.. shopping.. inviting people.. n relatives at home.. some people even popping into the room to just ask the most evident thing "are you studying"..? (excuse me.. why do you ask that even when u can see im doing that only).. Godd.. cant anyone understand.. i have the most important exams to prepare for (well atleast for me thats d most important thing to do that time.. study.. but i was arranging clothes.. cleaning.. inviting.. lol.. its funny now.. but then.. criminal.. people were bad to me :-P I felt crazy.. Why me..!!

One of the most natural thought of a human.. Why Me..? Why was a family outing such an important thing now ? why should my brothers wedding be scheduled a month before my exams.. why should that i have to adjust my space now? why did i have to fall sick? Why dont i get a silent place to study?

Why why why.. ? 

It was testing.. my character.. my values.. my patience.. my dream..

I held on to my USFM.. come on.. there are loads of other people who have had go through many more things that i could never even think of.. rise up..n give your best.. Study room, Terrace, Stairs, TV room, Anna Centenary Library, Kitchen, Granny home.. i studied everywhere..every minute that was available was valuable.. every question seemed important, yet only a few hours remaining..the day arrived..

Marching out terrified from the hall after the accounts paper but sighing a bit of relief at the similar devastated looks of fellow examines.. i felt like i needed to go to some place for positive rehabilitation to face my dearest paper coming up next.. Will it be Safe for Me (SFM)? It will if Lord Hanuman wore red colour in the temple.. to my luck.. he was.. and 

Two months from there, on 8th August.. as my friend screamed on the other side of the phone that results were declared..I cleared in my first appearance.. that was the day.. thats when i realised that my USF monologue might become a dialogue.. I don't need to experience those days again..and that now

I am called A Chartered Accountant..

More to come.. 

Divya Venkatesan